Summer Clothes

Yesterday was gorgeous outside, but the idea that this weather might be here to stay was tainted with a looming feeling of dread for me.  You see, for the past three years in October I've packed away summer clothes that no longer fit, with the hope that in April, I'd get to bring them up from the basement and be able to wear them.

And, once again, this April, I will not be fitting into my summer clothes.  For the third summer now.  It's quite devastating.

This may be hard to believe, but this is considered one of my thinner pics.

Before Greg and I went on our honeymoon I bought myself a new wardrobe.  I had lost about 35 lbs before my wedding and needed new clothes.  I wore those clothes for the summer of '07, when I was only a few months pregnant.  Aaaannnnd, that was the last time.

No, you're not seeing Bo Derek(s).  Just me and Adj.  In my (OUR, sorry Adj) thinner days.

I keep thinking that one day I will commit to eating better and exercising and finally stick with it.  Finally be able to say that eating right is my way of life and not just a "diet" that I'm on.  That I've finally made a lifestyle change.  But, until then, I find myself falling victim to carbs, and chocolate peanut butter eggs, and, uh, not exercising.

And carbs.  Did I mention the carbs?

 I have considerably more chins these days.

And you know, if we're being honest, I don't even want or need to be thin. I just want to be healthy.  But moreso, HAPPY.  I'm not happy at my current weight.  If I was, you'd see a lot more recent pictures of me.  I know that at this particular point in my life, I would be happier if I lost some weight.

I would be VERY VERY HAPPY if those damn summer clothes fit. 

Just some things to think about...